I made a tough decision recently. An emotional decision. One that, from the outside, may not seem like a big deal.
As you know, if you’ve been reading this regularly, I’ve been having some struggles with my future plans. The Bad Kitty as a business hasn’t grown the way I wanted it to and has actually shrunk in recent years. So now what?
Nearly four years ago I bought a new car – the Kia Soul. After I purchased it, I turned it into The Bad Kitty – mobile. It had my information on the back window – logo, name website, phone number and bullet points under the heading “Authentic Sensuality” of home pole parties and motivational speaker. On the sides the Bad Kitty was lounging across the doors. It felt like I was driving around in a representation of who I am and what I do.
However, to be honest, having that information on my car was not getting me any traction. I think I can count on one hand how many times I got a response from someone interested in having a party or were curious about my speaking. On two hands and my feet I can count how many curious men called thinking they were going to get some special services.
Still, I love my car and my logo. However, I had to look at reality. Was it doing what it as supposed to? No. Was it getting the response I wanted? No. I’ve been thinking for some time that it might be time to take off the advertising. But wouldn’t that be giving up?
Yes – and no. I made the decision. I didn’t take the decals off my car. I bought another car. It’s still a Kia Soul. It’s still green. But it’s four years newer and is not going to be a Bad Kitty-mobile, other than it is driving around this Bad Kitty. This was easier for me emotionally – and the new Souls are even cooler than the old ones with more features.
I feel like I haven’t given up – I’m letting go. I’m moving on to something new. I don’t know what it is yet. All I know is that it’s coming. The car is a symbolic release letting the universe know I’m open to something new and unexpected.
It’s important to know when it’s time to let go. There are so many situations we get into that are holding us back. They may have started out well, but have served their purpose.
When is it time to let go?
- Does the thing/situation/relationship serve you in a positive manner?
- Are your reasons for holding on emotional or based in reality?
- Will letting go help you move forward onto something more positive?
- Do you have a lot of energy wrapped up in this thing/situation/relationship that is draining you?
- Are you using your past as a safe place rather than moving forward to something scary?
I feel sad that I will no longer have a car with my logo on it – I do love that logo. So much so it’s tattooed on my back. Letting go is not without it’s sadness. It’s not without it’s doubts and fears. No, I’m not sure what is coming around the corner. I simply trust that The Bad Kitty as a business is not dead, just in transition. My car, Julep, was a symbol. That symbol is retired to make way for a new phase. Bye Julep. Hello Venus!
Here’s to the future! Who’s coming along on the journey?
Christie Mawer – The Bad Kitty